I would rather die of passion than of boredom

You, too, have and will feel this way before and again. Not every minute or every day or every month but.

Sometimes.

Sometimes you’ll want love that is so powerful, so overwhelming, that it can change the course of history. You’ll want love that will makes you feel like the poems and the songs and the movies, like every white and red blood cell is igniting at once and you’re dying and you don’t care because you’ve never been so solid, so real, so earthly, so profane.

You want to feel human, truly, horrifically, embarrassingly human in a way you never have. You want to defy fate and whatever god anyone might believe in because You are part of something more than me.

You want to be holy, you want to be miraculous, you want to be ecstasy made flesh. Even if just for a moment. Just a moment in which you know that magic exists.

You want passion.

You’ll want excitement, and adventure, and you won’t want to catch your breath. You won’t want to survive this world, you’ll want to wreak havoc across it and this feeling in your chest, this tightness like a scream is waiting between your heartbeats, like there’s something in you that could go supernova, and you don’t know if you’ll survive it, but you want it anyway.

You’ll want to run.

You’ll want to turn collateral damage into organized chaos.

You’ll want to yell and kiss and bruise and God you’ll want to live.

akindplace:

Sometimes you have to ask yourself what would you do if you weren’t so afraid of being who you really are, of showing yourself to the world, of being vulnerable, and then do it anyway.

(via akindplace)

siir-poesia:

capricores:

the signs + romantic relationships

+ will apply heavily to sun, venus, mars, descendant + dominance

[1/12] aquarius energy

a love that starts as friendship. aquarians have a fear of vulnerability and intimacy; they do not trust anyone easily. to be let into their close, inner circle takes a long time. they tend to have a lot of acquaintances; at-distance friends. when it comes to romantic love, aquarians will almost always start as a friendship; a friendship that becomes closer and closer until the line between romantic and platonic love is hard to distinguish. it’s essential for them to have a lover who is also a best friend.

sometimes, they jump into relationships extremely fast only to leave them just as quickly. in true uranus ruled fashion, they’re very intense but also indecisive and erratic; and it shows in their relationships. oftentimes they become near obsessed with people very quickly, only to turn cold and leave the situation shortly after. undeveloped aquarians are prone to on-off relationships and intense flings. they tend to invest themselves fully into relationships (in true saturnian fashion) once they finally feel that sense of comfort and trust they’ve been searching for. but it will take an extremely, extremely long time to reach this point for them. they are a ride or die partner who would quite literally kill for you. uranus / air influence can again sometimes have them running hot and cold; their mood swings within relationships (especially for aquarian venusians & moons) can be hard to keep up with at times.

those with aquarius influence love with a sense of independence. in true air fashion, they need their space. no matter how much they love you, they will need their alone time; their isolation, often for very long periods of time. aquarian placements tend to love people more from a distance, they often like long-distance relationships for this reason. they require mental stimulation in their connections; they need to be with someone who can talk to them about anything and everything. they tend to prefer partners on the studious or “nerdy” side; or partners who can teach them something. mental connection is significantly more important than emotional or physical connection for them. they’re interested in those who are unique; generally the outcast types. they like those who seem hard to read, and people that keep them on their feet with constant changes. aquarians are often drawn to mutable energy (especially sagittarius & gemini) because of the mutable energy’s ever-changing personalities and needs, and their often confusing/conflicting behaviors.

they can struggle to express and accept the love they feel, and it’s generally a big learning point for aquarians. they don’t usually like sentiment, intense shows of romance, etc. words of affirmation, cheesy things, pet names, and similar are not usually up their alley. it can actually be quite rare for aquarian energy to feel romantic love, as i’ve noticed they often just don’t have much of an interest in it; or they almost feel like they have to force themselves to feel this way / be in relationships. but when truly in love, they try their best to speak up about their affections. however they’re more likely to show their care through acts of service. little things like giving you advice, helping you work through your problems, doing small things for you, helping you be independent and firm in yourself/your beliefs, etc.

aquarian dominant individuals are a lover and a best friend in one. they have the intense passion and commitment of any fixed sign in a relationship; it just often takes them the longest of any sign to reach the level of trust and comfort needed to give their all to someone.

derangedrhythms:

Colossal desire to escape, retreat, not talk to anybody.

Sylvia Plath, The Unabridged Journals of Sylvia Plath ⁠— July 1950 - July 1953

jokerous:

#mood

lucky-numberme:

“I think a lot of my work is dealing with the gravity of agnosticism— of saying ‘I don’t know’, of staring into the endless cosmic void and standing bravely before it.”

— Chuck Tingle, Chuck Tingle and Riding the Lonesome Train, Talking Scared podcast

(via drchucktingle)

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inkskinned:

i made a little quiz. it has gentle wisdom to take with you. whatever i can give you is yours. love u. take the wisdom & run.

the rest is also work.

you have been fighting a very long time, huh? it feels like every time you wiggle out from something, another thing happens. like you spill all over the floor and into the hands of others. you might feel you are lazy, but there is no such thing as laziness. you are struggling with something older and more powerful than either of us - and it makes you a warrior. i have been there and i have fought the same thing. rest as much as you need, and be gentle to yourself for needing it. take the time you need. take the space you need. you are saving yourself when you are sleeping. i love you for it. feel better soon.

(via the-softest-bruise)